Feb_14_05

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2/14/05 12:12

I’ve just finished entering my assignments into my calendar so as to take a bird’s eye view of all of my “stuff”. It’s going to be a long year.  And I’ve no idea how I’m going to make it.  I’m tired.  I keep trying to think of ways to get more energy.  I just can’t see any.  I keep hoping that by doing all that I do the day will come when I won’t feel so tired.

I worry so much about leaving you guys without a chance to live.  I worry about dying too young, before you’re ready to be without me.  I want to “clear up” all my stuff before I let you go – or leave your world.

I don’t know how my soul would rest if I left you too soon.

I love you two soo much – You are my everything.  Someday, you too will know this feeling of joy.