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Help Your Generation Be A Better Generation

July 29, 2018 / / 0 Comments

Listen to your heart

July_18_96

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7/18/96 11:45 p.m.

My dearest children,

The world I live in today is a blind one.  It is walked upon by people who are presumptuous and arrogant. Not only are they that, but they are also [vainly] arrogant.  It is unfortunate. Unfortunate because there is much energy in these people.  Somewhat misguided, uncontrolled.  They do not stop long enough to listen, or long enough to understand.  Opinions, inflated facts, and an understanding of reality – limited to their narrow minded choices of information.

With luck, work and brighter future in mind, your world will not be similar to mine.  With hope, your generation will be a much better guided one.  One enriched by what you two have to offer.

You will hopefully see beyond the passions which pervert and blind those who do not control them.

We are our own worse enemy my children.  Our senses can confuse and control us.  Always turn to your hearts and your mind for the answer.

Answer only to your soul – not to the blind.  Always listen more than you speak.  Listen to what people say and to what they do not say.  What they do not say is just as important.  You can try to set them straight on some of the facts. But try is all one can do.

Do not push, do not shove.  A whisper in a crowd can be heard better than a shouting voice.

Much of this may not make sense, so you may need to ask me what it was all about.  I hope that is the case.  Remind me I was referring to Common Law and Gregory Fargo and platoon.

Love

Mom

P.S. We had a tough day today, the three of us.  But I love you with all of my heart.  Incredibly much. Sooo much.

Please Be Strong

July 26, 2018 / / 0 Comments

June_23_96

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6/23/96

My rug rats,

Another busy, wonderful weekend for us.  You are now at Daddy’s.  I sit here writing memories for you.  I am currently out of work and our budget is tight, but we are going to be just fine.  You are taking swimming lessons.  We have had some fun afternoons playing football.  Visiting friends needs to be more a part of our agenda.  Greg has been a part of our life for the past few weeks.  That part is not going to work out.  I feel like he does not understand what I am trying to do with you.  Not many people do.  Now-a-days raising children in a loving, patient environment is not what many people do.  Greg certainly is not one of them.  That is too bad.  But your moma is not one to let people be impatient with you.  I do not care who it is.  I love you both.  Please be strong.

Brandon, take care of Emma.

Emma, let him.

Love

Moma

 

It’s Good You’re Fishing

July 25, 2018 / / 0 Comments

May_24_96

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5/24/96
8:05

My wonderful, wonderful children

You are fishing.  Mommy is sitting on Gregory’s bed writing to you.  A lot of things have happened in our lives this month.  Momma got [a] scholarship to Occidental.  She has finished two glorious years at Glendale College and we have survived up until now fairly well.  You two are tremendous children in my life.  I don’t know what or how or who I would be with out you.

I got fired from Pat & Lorraines, to say the least.  They are playing their games with me of cutting hours and shit.  So basically we will call it a firing.  I will be looking for a new job soon.

Everything is looking real critical for us.  New school, new job. New life.  I need to really work at a lot of things this summer.  There are so many little things.  They pile up to one huge backed up thing[s].  I was pretty depressed today.  I still am so it is a good thing that you are fishing with daddy – having a good time.

Mommy has a ton of stuff to get out of the way for you.

My things are coming in from Puerto Rico finally.  Many things are coming in to place.

Crisis – Silvio Rodriguez

July 24, 2018 / / 0 Comments

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5/14/96

My children, my loves, my life.  We have traveled a long, hard, narrow road.  Nothing but good things can happen to us now.

Together we have come this far.

Together we will go the distance.

No one ever said life was easy, that is not news.

But life is interesting, Crisis #12 Silvio tells it all.

Las cosas en nuestra vida siempre seran sagradas. Nunca las desperdicien.

Con Amor

Su Mama

Pull Together

July 23, 2018 / / 0 Comments

Jan_10_96

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dear Brandon and Emma

this is not the first letter or note I may have written to you, but it is the first entry in an official log for you to keep.

many things have happened in your lives that today make you who you are. you are people of great character today and when you read these pages you will still be.

I am writing to you together in this book because I hope you two will always remain together.  I hope this book will be a single of many bonds you have keeping you together  today as children I express anxiety, distress when I see the two of you argue or fight.  that is only because I wish for the two of you to recognize who and what you are in each others lives.  when I no longer am in between the two of you, either pulling you apart or pulling you together I hope the pages to come will be there in my place.

my love for the two of you is eternal and infin[i]tely large.  for your sister tory as well. I hope that as you read these pages, or future ones, you find yourselves together.  I also write to her, in another book, perhaps you can sit and compare my thought for each of you. Perhaps you can better understand me through these pages and this ink.

this book, and future ones like it, are intended to help you reflect upon those things you find yourself not understanding. Perhaps things you do not understand today as you read or things you remember from our past.

if you find me making reference to a single person in these writings do not try to figure out who I am speaking of if I do not make mention of a name.  the contents of these pages are intended for both of you. together you must, together, through these pages you will also better understand me. I know it is difficult. I am a person with many passions, many thoughts, many dreams.  I strive for much too much sometimes and other not enough.  I hope someday I will have learned how to measure my steps and reaches.  If I do not perhaps I am not to do anything different than I already am.

I shall leave this note for the time being.

With much love

Mom

1-10-96 10:05 pm.

You Have Had A Couple of Good Days

July 22, 2018 / / 0 Comments

June_23_05

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Hello my darlings (scribble)

Weird, I know.  It’s my own sort of code, “Ha!, Hmmm?)” Whatever. You have had a couple of good days.  We had Parent Conference a couple of nights ago and you guys were great.  Your teachers are all so happy with you.  Emma, you are truly becoming – you fight it, but everyone is so happy with you.  Drama, writing in Humanities, you got physics credit or some such thin – and math – Wow-Algebra 2 next year.  But you fight it.  I let your teachers know you didn’t want to go there next year, but it is not an option.  I think you feel better.  Brandon, you don’t know it yet, but Syd said you got picked by the actor guy…from your rehearsal.  We’ll see if they follow through – That’s what she whispered in my ear.  In the meantime, you two are doing well with each other. Love Mom.

Touch the World and Leave Your Magic

July 19, 2018 / / 0 Comments

June_06_05

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My Lives

It has been a long week and it certainly was a long day.  You both had your presentations today and you performed with flying colors. Your teachers are all incredibly pleased with you all/both, and I am excited for you. Em, I have shared with you that I think, after all that has happened, that you are afraid of success.  The more I watch and listen the stronger this impression becomes.  I cannot help but begin yet on a new mission to help guide you through if in fact we find this to be true.  It is my new theory given the fact that on the one hand you show growth, express excitement, share new learning, glow over but yet you claim unhappiness with no known source and a desire to leave.  I can’t help to wonder if you want to escape all the positive growth because you are afraid to succeed.  How do I help[?]  Brandon, you are showing growth through leadership.  You turned in your  first job application, you are conducting for Maggie, leading boys dance teams, and hopefully, recognizing that you have gifts to share, you both do, and it should be a goal, a mission, to do that.  Our purpose in life should be to leave where you’ve been a better place.  Touch it with your gifts and leave your magic.  I will leave you very little, but I hope it’s quality will last beyond a lifetime.

You guys are my world.

Mom

My Tenets…2005

July 18, 2018 / / 0 Comments

These we’re sort of my guides, my go to’s. The one not listed, didn’t need to be at the time because it was already a part of my mental constitution -Be a person of integrity, no matter how difficult.

 

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