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11/12/06
Life can be hard at times. And it spins almost out of control. Much has happened over the past month. So much that I’ve not had the energy to keep track of it all. Emma, you’ve had your Quinceanera and all went well. Unfortunately, you [were] hit by a car, along with Thea, the week before and we are still dealing with the wreckage. You have had nightmares and flashbacks that have made it difficult for you to get on psychologically. Physically you have had your challenges as well. I am at a loss that angers me – I question what to do. Thea’s uncle was getting information on the matter, but then there passes time with no contact. I guess the things that upset me are your personal state and the quandary of whether there is anything that can be done about it. I just feel without direction on this one. This enrages me more. Life is just hard sometimes. But I know this too will be taken care of one way or another with me/by me. Brandon, you’re going through a whole host of other dilemmas – college applications, little people and cello, cello, cello. It is difficult to just see you at this juncture in life. You are starting to take more personal responsibility for yourself and that is good to see. But, I know there are still many things to endure before you are independent. It is difficult for me to see you grow and go. I keep thinking of daddy Lyman and his mother, and how she still worried even though he was a man. I feel life in the pit of my stomach somedays, but tonight it is ever present. I always pray for strength and thank god for my blessings.
Love Mom
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