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You probably at this point are wondering what Milton’s role or Nancy’s role are in my life.  They are both in it, but how, to what degree, and why? The truth is that they probably feel they are more in my life than I give them room for.  The truth to me is that I’ve never, thus far, felt my life and future belonged to any one partner.  To this very moment my life belongs to the two of you – no one else.  I do desire someone in my life – “fantasy” would have someone phenomenal, amazing, magical.  At this moment in my world there is no one that works that way.  Milton makes CD’s and boxes, and jewelry.  Nancy is humble, honest, predictable.  Anyone else would have some other find quality to them.  The “truth” reality, sadness of it all is that now one impresses me. My feeling is that we are in a good place at this moment.  I do, at times, wonder what if…when I remember/think of Hector. But… And that is the standard.  Don’t do this when you grow older and more “jaded”.  Live, Love, ad Enjoy every person you are with, when you are with them.  And move on.  Everyone you meet will have something to offer you.  You loved ones will have something you can take with you.  Don’t dwell on what you didn’t get.  This is always easier said than done.  But it is necessary.