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4/20/05
Hi Babies;
I’ve been sick for the past few days, maybe a week and a few days now. It has been a while since I’ve been sick for such a period of time. I was ill on my birthday, but that only lasted a couple of days. Brandon, I think you’ve grown and matured as of late. You’ve been tucking me in as oppose to the other way around. I hate being sick and not being able to be strong for you both. it really struck me Brandon when you asked me to prepare a tortilla for you. Maybe I read too much into it, but it was almost as if you just wanted me to do something for you that a mother would do. Em, it seems like my mortality is the one thing that brings you around. You’ve tried being nicer. You have certainly had a change in how you approach your school work. You wrote your paper on your book all alone. Muy Proud! Now if I can only get you to feel as confident in all areas of your life. I’m better, but the thought of me aging can’t seem to find its way out of my mind. The truth is I am aging. I don’t take care of myself and I feel it. I’m 38 now, and although my intentions are good, time has gotten away from me.
I want to live long enough to make sure you two are strong and healthy and well on your way. I guess I’ll have to keep my many wishes to take better care of myself.
You two are my universe.
Love, Mom
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